Hi! Hello. I deal with a handful of mood disorders, and feeling isolated is a big contributor to my darker moods. It’s always been helpful for me to chat and compare notes with others who deal with similar problems. There seems to be a broad intersection between people who struggle with their mental health and games enthusiasts, so maybe we can share a bit about the challenges we face and the techniques we use to bypass them.
Lately I’ve been having trouble with being motivated enough to play certain types of games. I want to get through Wolfenstein: The New Order so that I can see The New Colossus before all the Game of the Year stuff hits, but every time I sit down with time to play the task seems too big. I feel like I’m not in the optimal state to absorb the experience, and it would be a waste to play it like this. I’ll fall back on something where I can just spin my wheels without spending much mental energy like an MMO or lately Stardew Valley.
These lightweight games are a fine way to pass the time, but I’ve missed out on a ton of games I spent money on and really want to see – Pillars of Eternity, Tides of Numenera, Divinity 2, Prey, Shadow of War, and so on back into history. This feeds into feelings of guilt about leaving things undone or half-done.
I’ve had a little success in using the flip of a coin to decide what to play. Heads: Wolfenstein, tails: Final Fantasy XIV. I use the dumb septim that came with the Oblivion collector’s edition. If I get heads, I feel good about honoring a promise I made to myself even if I might miss a news clipping because I’m not currently the Avatar of Mental Focus. If I get tails that’s a PERFECTLY LEGITIMATE EXCUSE to just kill a billion lemurs.