No it’s all good! I get fuzzy feelings thinking about this thread, so I’m totally down with kicking it up again.
Um, this is tough stuff and it’s something I am still very much going through. My friend gave me a book, Transgender History by Susan Stryker, that seems really good, though I haven’t gotten started on it because of school.
Something that helps me out is finding others who experience similar things, whether in the real world or online. I volunteer with the gay-straight alliance at my university, I follow a lot of trans/non-binary people on twitter and on tumblr and that’s helped me ground my experience in the experience of others.
Some public trans/non-binary people in gaming circles that would be good to follow are Carolyn Petit (@ carolynmichelle) Liz Ryerson (@ ellaguro) , Heather Alexandra (@ transgamerthink), (Joni Kittaka @ even_kei), Amr Al-Aaser (@ siegerettes)
I’m also in a fairly conservative area, though the university can help with that a bit, and there are always people around. So even if you don’t feel safe going out and trying to meet other people, just knowing that there are trans people around you can be comforting. LGBT+ people are always around, everywhere.
Feeling “real” in gender identity is really hard and I hope this helps a little bit.
Edit: also, sorry for taking a while to reply to this. I didn’t see it until today!