Gonna bump this thread for a thing I’m really happy about.
It’s been a bit since I’ve realized I’m gender queer, and I’ve been slowly exploring what that means for me in regards to how I want to present to the outside world. I’m slowly warming up to the idea of changing my pronouns, I’ve been really slow to do it cause I just present so incredibly masculine that I was scared no one would take me seriously. But my FTM friends have been encouraging me to try out different pronouns even if I still look the same as always and I trust them.
Also on Sunday I went to a party with makeup on for the first time. Which sounds like a small thing, but for the first time in my life I felt cute! I’m not exactly bad looking but I’ve always been called and thought of myself as “handsome” at best, which has always felt “male” which isn’t how I wanna be seen by others. So getting to feel actually cute for the first time in my life cause I put on some makeup made me so happy.
I’m gonna keep exploring my gender stuff and how I wanna present. I’ve made myself a promise that I’m gonna buy myself some tights or a skirt or blouse for Xmas, even if I’m only wearing them around the house.