Hello everyone. I am not sure how appropriate this is to have on this forum, but I have been dealing with depression and anxiety basically since sixth grade in middle school. I didn’t really address my mental health issues until I was in the University of Texas at Austin, or UT Austin for short. I actually went to a summer orientation event at UT Austin before my first Fall 2010 semester and I had a bad experience there. There was a lot of people at this event, which made me pretty anxious. I just also felt uncomfortable there, but I can’t really point out why. I tried to tell my parents that I didn’t want to go there because I just didn’t like it, but they dismissed my issues by saying that I was (paraphrasing here) just a teenager who didn’t know want I really wanted.
So when I went to UT Austin, I had one of the worst experiences in my life. I went into a deep depression where I could not feel emotion for the vast majority of my first semester there. I did not shave for months until I went back home and my father shaved me. I am lucky that I cared enough about my body to shower. It was in October when I first started to go to therapy. I was just trying to figure out if and what I could do to manage my mental health. The therapist there recommended that I go to another university since I wasn’t able to cope at being in UT Austin. I tried to leave UT Austin, but my parents said that I would have to find a job if I left UT Austin.
I was too scared to actually find a job, so I decided to stay at UT Austin. I was able to function a bit better for about four years or so until my depression and anxiety kicked in again. My last two semesters went very badly and I went to a very intensive group therapy for both of those semesters. I actually had to leave UT Austin for both of those semesters because I didn’t turn in any assignments so I was failing my classes. I haven’t been back to UT Austin since May of 2015.
I have been living in my parents house since then. I haven’t done much of anything since then to improve my situation. I don’t work. I can’t drive. I don’t seem to be able to manage my mental health well at all. I am asking for help on here because I am not sure of what to do. I have been to different therapists, but that doesn’t seem to help. I took medication for managing depression, but that didn’t seem to help either. I would ask friends for help, but I don’t have any friends. Does anyone have any tips on managing mental health? Sorry for the long post. I also apologize in advance if I choose the wrong topic.