My feelings on this are so difficult to unpack and I might come back and amend this after listening to the pod (which I hope will be … soothing?) but as for now here’s where I’m at:
Point blank I can’t deal with this Kanye right now. I’ve felt physically sick and embarrassed since this whole thing started and yesterday I ultimately had to unfollow him for my own wellbeing.
I have no tolerance for any takes supporting what he’s saying right now, particularly because the people who are coming out of the woodwork to embrace him are what I find the most repulsive about this whole situation.
All of that said, I don’t know if I can quit Kanye. If I’m being honest with myself my appreciation for Kanye’s music runs too deep. Sure this situation has firmly pushed me into “I miss the old Kanye” territory, but for as disgusted as I feel right now his work is still so intrinsically linked to memories of my past.
That’s not to say I won’t make an effort to try to distance myself from these feelings, because I can firmly say if any other creator I followed was behaving this way I wouldn’t hesitate to drop them.
As for whether Kanye’s feelings about all this are genuine, I feel like that’s what makes this so difficult. A lot of the things he’s been saying are what he’s been selling his entire career. He’s always trafficked in controversy and what that looks like in 2018 – especially for uber-rich, Kardashian spouse Kanye – is supporting other uber-rich, egomaniac reality TV socialites.