Hey Waypoint fans!
I’m Ven, I go by some form or variant of gendernihilist pretty much everywhere, it really depends what platform we’re talking about here.
I’m a white settler and colonizer living and playing (and hardly working) on occupied, unceded Coast Salish territory, born on that same territory (specifically a hospital on W̱SÁNEĆ land) in '85, I’m an agender/nonbinary/gender nihilist trans woman, they/them/theirs, in addition to the T I’m also the B in LGBT, got that good good severe clinical depression, the twin anxiety disorders GAD & SAD and gender/body dysphoria with some eating disorder stuff tossed in the mix, as a settler/colonizer anti-capitalist my politics place decolonization and the decentering of whiteness/centering of indigeneity as #1 political priorities above anything else, if we’re going by European-descended branches of anti-capitalism I’m some mutt-like combination of a bunch of tendencies but primarily I guess nihilist communism, nihilist anarchism and communization theory? Decolonial nihilist anarcho-communization? I just usually say anti-capitalist, and I mean I draw on pretty disparate tendencies and individuals and keep drawing on more and more all the time. As a teenager I was That Anarchist that had a lot of unfounded hate-ons for Marx and communism but that ain’t me now that I’ve, y’know, actually read them lololol! I have a degree in Political Science with a capital P and S that has never opened a single door for me and that I’m still in debt and poverty from because really like philosophy you gotta take poli sci to the PhD level to do anything with it, and that “anything” is teach grad students. Woulda been better off not having plugged into The Academy in the least but you live and you learn (under capitalism the lessons are just costly). So I guess I’m technically a political scientist lmao
All that said: labels are wounds, the space between labels where the people whomst you love and whomst love you know you is the healing of those wounds through nuance and complexity…and still for strangers we take up the knife again!
Computer and video games have been a love of mine from very young, I became a devotee of Black Isle games on PC (my faves were Planescape: Torment, Fallout 2 and Baldur’s Gate II, altho special shoutout to Lionheart for letting me scratch that historical fiction itch) and of Squaresoft games (my faves were Xenogears, Final Fantasy Tactics and Vagrant Story) on console, but I played a lot of games outside of RPGs, especially stealth, survival, strategy and sim games (lotta S genres!). Also used to own an original Xbox with Steel Battalion that still worked even up until a couple years ago when I gave all my original Xbox stuff away. Used to mess around with text-based games a lot too (including some MUDs and MUSHes altho I tended to be that player who committed for like a month and then vanished lmao) not so much anymore tho. I’d add in what I like in other forms of media but this list is already too long for favourite artists/albums/films/shows/etc lmao
Looking back on my introduction, I’m even more convinced Foucault was right about the socio-culturally conditioned confession compulsion of the clergy-dominated era having obtained a secular character in this era. Same discursive formation, different pile.
tl;dr I’m Ven! Hi!