It’s been some time since I’ve participated on this forum. The last time I was really posting was back during the summer, in July, when I was helping run the Unofficial Waypoint Game Jam - New Jam City. Something I hope to participate in again this year. But in the time since then my situation has changed. Never to such a degree that it really warranted leaving the forum.
The simple fact is that I struggle with all social media. I struggle to stay on them because while I want to have conversations with people, the distance, the time issues and just the sheer number of conversations going on at the same time makes it hard to do so. Plus I’m just lazy.
Why would I get online to talk to people when I could sit and talk to the Wife or mumble incoherent nothings to my kid? My time with them is limited to a few hours a day because of work, daycare, etc. So why trade that for the anonymity of the web? At the same time I know social media, and places like this forum, are where I can discuss things I’m interested in and that my daughter doesn’t have the ability to comprehend (yet). She is only one.
And I know I need to use social media, for my career, to stay in touch with friends and family. But it continues to seem so impersonal. Or I’m at such a remove from everything, social media makes it only seem more so. And it’s not just this forum I struggle to return to, it’s the same for the Idle Thumbs & Games with Jobs forums. But as I’ve gone about the world I continue to move away from people even as technology has made staying in touch easier and easier. But I don’t. I just don’t write to anyone, or reach out to them.
Because I’m lazy. Because I think my time is better spent. Because I ask myself why aren’t they contacting me.
I’m a creator, and as such I want to come here and share my work, knowing full well you’ll appreciate it and provide much needed feedback. But at the same time I don’t want to stay around and do the same for others, because that’s taking time from my own creations. It’s selfish. Yet I justify to myself that I need to reduce my consumption of media, because I need to focus on creating.
These are just some of the thoughts I’ve been having as I struggle to return to this forum and actually participate and hold conversations with others. So I guess the question is, what keeps you returning and participating?