No worries! I’m happy to expand a bit on that.
As someone who grew up in the Christian faith, I think a lot of the fundamental tenets of Christianity as a personal doctrine encourages self-interest and views compassion as a means to an end, namely one’s own salvation.
Under Christian doctrine every good deed is another step towards heaven. Compassion is instrumental. There’s no reason to care about making the world a better place for when you leave it, because the mortal realm is a testing ground where you need to prove yourself worthy before the main event.
I have a lot of thoughts about this but what I’ll say is that yes, the Church (and especially the Catholic Church) is a leech whose own past should be sufficient to condemn it. But, I think the beliefs themselves are also objectionable. These organisations just exacerbate and magnify the negative externalities of the doctrine itself. Take it away and you’ve still got a belief system that is fundamentally utilitarian.
Midnight Mass actually touches on this a bunch but always directs the blame back on individuals and their relationship to the institution. The beliefs, and the act of believing, is never interrogated with the same urgency or scepticism.
Ultimately, I am an atheist though. And I don’t come at atheism from a scientific perspective. I have specific moral objections to Christianity and the older Abrahamic religions that it’s derived from, based on my perspective of growing up baptist.