This year has been rough for me, especially on weekends. Whenever my brain is given time and space to idle, it’s hard to think of anything other than some stuff involving informed consent online that happened to me some months ago. It’s hard in general, I think, to not be defined by stuff like this, even if you’ve already had past experiences with forms of abuse or assault people consider more, uh, “”“real”"".
I’m lucky. I have a support group. I have a psych. But its still easy, especially online, to feel (or even have proven to you) that these are isolated islands of safety, that everything outside of them is going to be a gamble, and that you’re never going to have the chance to frame your own narrative again - whether or not that narrative includes or even relates to the abuse.
This is all to say that this episode dropped at the end of a day I’d been given time to start dwelling again, and I’m glad that it did. It always feels to me like explaining your personal relationship to abuse, or addiction, takes a lot of fortitude and emotional energy, especially when you’re trying not to let it define you. So, big props to Natalie, Danielle, and Rob for that. Thank you all for having this discussion, and thanks for continuing to do the work you all do.
No pedestals, but Waypoint has a habit of making it feel like there’s more islands out there, even if I can’t always see them.