copypasted from the introductions thread, with edits to bring it under 3000 characters lmao:

I’m Ven, go by gendernihilist

I’m a white settler/colonizer living & playing (& hardly working) on occupied, unceded Coast Salish territory, born on that same territory (specifically a hospital on W̱SÁNEĆ land) in '85, I’m an agender/nb/gender nihilist trans woman, they/them/theirs, the T & the B in LGBT, got severe clinical depression, the twin anxiety disorders GAD & SAD & gender/body dysphoria with some eating disorder stuff tossed in the mix, as a settler/colonizer anti-capitalist my politics place decolonization/decentering of whiteness/centering of indigeneity as #1 political priorities above anything else, if we’re going by European-descended branches of anti-capitalism I’m some combination of a bunch of tendencies…decolonial nihilist anarcho-communization? I usually say anti-capitalist, & I draw on pretty disparate tendencies/individuals & keep drawing on more all the time. As a teen I was That Anarchist that had a lot of unfounded hate-ons for Marx/communism but that ain’t me now that I’ve, y’know, actually read them lol! Got a degree in Political Science that has never opened a single door for me/that I’m still in debt & poverty from because really like philosophy you gotta take poli sci to the PhD level to do anything with it, & that “anything” is teach grad students. Woulda been better off not having plugged into The Academy but you live & you learn (under capitalism the lessons are just costly). So I guess I’m technically a political scientist lmao

All that said: labels are wounds, the space between labels where the people whomst you love & whomst love you know you is the healing of those wounds through nuance & complexity…& still for strangers we take up the knife again!

Computer & video games have been a love of mine from young, I became a devotee of Black Isle games on PC (my faves were Torment, F2 & BG2, special shoutout to Lionheart for letting me scratch a historical fiction itch) & of Squaresoft games (my faves were Xenogears, FFT & Vagrant Story) on console, but I played a lot of games outside of RPGs, especially stealth, survival, strategy & sim games. Also owned an Xbox with Steel Battalion that still worked even up until a couple years ago when I gave that stuff away. Messed around with text-based games a lot (incl. MUDs & MUSHes, I tended to be that player who committed for like a month & then vanished lmao) not anymore tho. I’d add in what I like in other forms of media but this list is already too long for other faves lmao

Looking back on my introduction, I’m even more convinced Foucault was right about the socio-culturally conditioned confession compulsion of the clergy-dominated era having obtained a secular character in this era. Same discursive formation, different pile.

tl;dr I’m Ven! Hi!